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♥mydailesrants~ Wednesday, April 1, 2009

APRIL FOOL DAY ~~~!
is just a normal day.

days without seeing u so struggling through out my days.
is lik there no sunshines in my life right now.
ii wann the gloomy happiness that u give mi before ,
ii wann the sun and star that u always give mi ,
tease mi , make fun of mi whenever we always together.

Love is as much of an object as an obsession,
everybody wants it, everybody seeks it,
but few ever achieve it,
those who do will cherish it,
be lost in it,
and among all,
never... never forget it.
i will never ever forget those days we are happily together ,
rather den this fews days sadness been thru mi .
although ,
right now everything of mi u can see thru ur eyes and minds,
i cant hide anything from u ,
u noe wad im thinking from the starting til now.
but i hardly understand wad u are thinking ,
ur mind is twisting and turning around lik a world ,
that i reali think wad u thinking .
seems lik u are not hiding facts from mi ,
but time apartness of us ,
busy aggresive in work ,
stretch our love ,
far apart.

Pleasure of love lasts but a moment, ( words of honeymoon )
Pain of love lasts a lifetime.( when we struggles our love between each others)

Friends will keep mi sane,
Love could fill my heart,
A lover lik u can warm my bed,
But lonely is the soul without a YOU .
i nid frenz ,
but i nid u more den them ,
cuz u are the one ,
i wan to spend time with ,
fren are the one ,
that they are there to be concern for each others ,
but ,
they cant give the love as u gave mi ,
is different things ,
is different topics ,
is the different feelings between FRENZ AND YOU~!.
FRENZ give mi concern and cares , happiness enjoyable chilling session hang out time~!
YOU give mi love , hugs ,kiss , happiness , crazy moments and nuts feeling for u ~!

silly , the difference you see in here .
is two different types of ppl i nid .
although parents gave love ,
but the one who grow with mi,
is not my parents ,
not my frenz.
is you.

* i realie hope u think what u going to do ,
wad u going to chose. from this moment on.
* dragging things , cant apparently control every limits and step of us.

one party therefore wil be hurt deeply down the heart.
you noe the feeling sux , of sinking down the heart.
especially when feeling are getting deeper ,
and suddenly one of us just walked away ,
the FEELING REALI taste BADLY. ~!

THISFEW`SDAYS,

i tink we wont be mitting up again ,
i nid to calm down ,
u nid to tink clearly.

FIRST CHOICE , we be SAME AS USUAL .
SECOND CHOICE , we be CLOSE FRENE.
THIRD CHOICE , let it be.
FOURTH CHOICE , forget everything.

i said all i got to said already to u todae.
i noe it makes u heart break for wad i said todae.
but did u ever noe but my feeling is worst den u.
to brought up the topics from my mouth and heart.
i didnt expect i would sae all things from my heart,
the first time.
words of break up im the one suggested it.
this reali my first time to sae BREAK UP to u to the first guy among all my ex that i REALIE LOVE.
in the past i did not mention BREAK UP this two words to my ex guys that i reali love .
i wil STRUGGLE TO THE END OF THE RELATIONSHIP TIL THEY SAE BREAK UP.
but for u ,
my heart is sinking deeply.
sinking badly.
feeling hurt.
dam irritated by things u do.

you may think is a APRIL FOOL message ,
but im not joking about it.
STRUGGLING will never give a DEFINE ANSWER OUT TO IT~!
STRUGGLING LOVE , is damm frustrated irritating crazy BONKERS FEELING OF ALL.`!

JOLINE♥

6:13 AM